Removing old energy with waist beads

Hello Queens! Thank God its Friday! I hope you all have a blessed and safe weekend since it is the Super Bowl and I know people will be celebrating and partying including myself! I want to talk about my waist beads and where I am on my healing journey. I removed so many waist beads this past week. I removed 8 waist beads and 1 broke on my way home from work. So now I am focusing on which new ones I would like to add to my body. Also I had a birthday last month and I believe I have officially stepped into my womanhood. I am no longer considered a young adult. This is symbolic for me because I decided that I do not want to show off my waist beads as much anymore. The reason why is because I do want to be married one day and waist beads are traditionally supposed to be worn for your husband. I have not been dating because I have been focusing so much on healing from sexual trauma and other abuse that I experienced in my life especially after my parents passed away. I can say that I have healed from grief which is acceptance. Healing is a process that you cannot rush but I can honestly say that I healed from their death. I finally accepted them being gone from my life without feeling shameful or having resentfulness towards God for what happened that day. I have always been spiritual and I love God but I questioned why he allowed my parents to be taken away from me at such a young age. I was left to figure out the world on my own without them and it was scary at first but I get better with time and age which is why I am sharing more about my life with you all in hopes to encourage, inspire or motivate people with whatever adversity they may be struggling with. Once I accepted their death which is the final stage of grief, I was able to see how beautiful their life was before they passed away. I am actually happy to know that they died together because that lets me know that they are still together in love and I love that for them. It is truly beautiful when I think about it from this perspective instead of the perspective I had before. As we get closer to Valentines Day, I want to spread more of this joy and love that I feel in honor of my parents. To know that I am a product of the love they shared makes me feel so special and to know that I am helping women with my waist beads makes me feel even more special but it is not always about me. It is the love God has for me and all of you. To allow us to grow from the things that hurt us the most is the most purest form of love. Last night I had a dream that spooked me out until I researched what it meant. I write in my journal a lot so I immediately wrote about the dream I had. I dreamed that something very disgusting and repulsive came out of my body. I tried to kill it once it was out but it died on its own and then I instantly woke up. The dream felt so real because it was in my bed in my room so when I woke up I was so shook. When I researched to see what that represents it was something positive. What was removed from my body was a betrayal or distrust and when it died on its own that was a sign of rebirth or renewal. It also symbolizes self cleanse. After reading all of that information I felt relieved. I felt that I had been healed a great deal but my dream confirmed not only am I healing but a new happier healthier life is to come ahead and this makes me feel so happy and excited for life! I wanted to share this with you all so you too can know that change is coming! Thank you for letting me share! Peace and Blessings to all of you on your journey! Also thank you for over 10 years of continuous love and support!

Love Always,

Malon Mahotiere