On this day: Surviving-Thriving
Hello Queens and Kings! Today officially makes 27 years since the passing of my two loving parents, Dr. Sauveur Mahotiere and Mrs. Rahmatoullahy Barry Mahotiere. Although I do not remember my parents, my body still remembers the traumatic impact from this day and my spirit still remembers my parents love for me
It took me nearly 2 decades from that incident to realize how grateful I am to survive that fatal collision that day because I used to spend majority of my time grieving and mourning their death.
For some reason, I cannot allow myself to be sad about them being gone anymore. I believe they do no want that for me and my life purpose is to make my parents proud of me. I think people forget how valuable the love between a parent and child can be. Just because my parents departed from this earth does not mean they do not love me and want the best for me. It also does not mean they can not protect me if they need to.
Over the years, I have been more receptive to my spiritual gifts. When I was young, I did not understand my power. I was too busy trying to survive. My life consisted of constant survival mode. When I finally decided to go to therapy years ago for a traumatic event that had NOTHING to do with my parents death, that is when I learned about thriving. My therapist explained to me how it is not enough to survive trauma because you will still have side effects. Thriving is defined as flourishing and prospering. While survival is described as continuing to live or exist despite an unfortunate circumstances. It also has “accident” listed as one of the examples of an unfortunate circumstance. That is not a coincidence. Automobile collisions can have a great impact on someone’s life especially if it resulted in fatality or severe injury.
In my case, me and my brothers experienced both. Although we survived that day, thriving is more ideal. Thriving is the result of healing or at least attempting to.
I am writing this blog to publicly say that I am no longer interested in living a survival mode life. I have endured enough pain and trauma as a result of my parents death but I also was able to accomplish great things in life that I should be proud of!
Therefore, I am accepting responsibility to take control of my life.
This has been the toughest decision I have made because I am more accustomed to pain and heartache than I am happiness. I no longer want to live a life of misery. People have been using my trauma against me and I allowed this to continue for far too long.
From this day forward, I promise to make a conscious effort to thrive as I continue this healing journey
I will always love my parents and of course I miss them dearly but I have to accept that they are gone. I will not be able to reunite with them until I have fulfilled my life purpose and God calls me home. That is why living a life of misery will be doing a disservice. If I truly want to honor my parents than I have to live better. Happiness is one of those things that no one can hand to you. It is your responsibility to obtain it if that is what you desire
When I decided to start this healing journey, I had no idea how sporadic my emotions would become. One day I feel liberated yet sometimes I still feel stuck. I finished writing my first book to heal from my childhood trauma at the beginning of this month and I decided to start writing my second book at the end of this month
I want to share my story to help other people especially orphans and African Americans but I have an internal motivation to write. This has been the most therapeutic healing experience for me. I was able to heal a lot of my wounds without sitting in someones office who has no idea how to comprehend what I am feeling.
I made healing my own responsibility and of course I have been using my waist beads as a tool to help me.
Today I added a metallic pink pearl with a splash of gold and orange in the waist bead design. I typically cut my beads after tying them on my body but this time I doubled the string and attached it so it’s 2 beads in 1.
This is for my parents. The love they had for one another is an inspiration to me. I love them so much and I love the love they shared.. Despite me being sad that they’re gone, I am happy to know they are still together in spirit. Their love will never die
Thank you so much for allowing me to share! I am very grateful, thankful and humbled by all the support and love that I receive.
Every day I wake up and Thank God for allowing me to live another day to do what I love! I just want to encourage others to do what you love, heal from what ever is hurting you and make it your responsibility to live the life you deserve.
Blessings to you all on your journey!
Love always and forever
Malon Mahotiere
P.S. I will reveal details of my book release before the year is over