4-11

Greetings! Happy Pink Friday girls. I’m just here to give you all the 4-11 in honor of my father Dr. Sauveur Mahotiere. Yesterday was his birthday and I celebrated. I did the math and if my father was still alive he would almost be 90. I took the Master Barber examination for the Georgia State Board.

The fact that I passed my Master Barber test on my fathers birthday is so significant. I spent a lot of the day with my brother, the Gemini. He was bothered because my eldest sister made a post on Facebook about our father. I don’t get on Facebook anymore so I wouldn’t know. I was going to make a post about my father as a response but I changed my mind. I have way too much going on to entertain my sister and her internet antics. I wanted to honor my father in another way without including any drama.

The day before my fathers birthday, I had a doctor’s appointment. I’ve been having a lot of health issues that have been affecting my ability to work. After I turned 30, I realized how grateful I am to be able to earn an income without having to work a job. When I left the doctor, I decided to stay home and study for my test. I got a phone call from my manager telling me that the shop owners didn’t think it would “work out” with me. In my mind I’m thinking, “Perfect. I got what I needed anyway.” That job was not only toxic for no reason but way too controlling. One of the coworkers had the nerve to call my phone nearly 10 times on Sunday because I left. She got upset because they asked me to stay.

I’m like Dennis Rodman, when I’m off the clock I AM OFF THE CLOCK. I don’t have time to waste. Apparently that rubbed her the wrong way and she told the owners. I correlated the two once my manager told me I needed to call her to let her know when I’m getting my things. In my mind I’m thinking “What is wrong with these people?” The beauty and barber industry truly wore me out.

After I got off the phone, I was elated. THANK GOODNESS! I have never been so happy to be fired. This is the second time I’ve gotten fired this year. I’m starting to think this is a sign. When I woke up on 4/11, it was in the middle of the night again so I immediately started studying for my Barber test.

Phone rings in the middle of the night
My father yells,

"What you gonna do with your life?"

Oh, Daddy dear, you know you're still # 1
But girls, they wanna have fun

As I prepared for this examination, I thought about what my father may want me to do with my life. There’s so much that I’ve accomplished before age 30. I am not trying to stress myself out with work. Years ago before I moved to LA, I spoke to a psychic medium. She said my father had a message for me. That message was “You’re working too hard. Do not kill yourself young with that stress.”

For many years I didn’t understand what it meant to work without being in survival mode. At 30, there is so much for me to reflect on. I spent all of my 20s putting in work with NO PLAY. I think people want me to believe that I need to work hard in order to be successful but that is not true. I need to be happy with the work that I’m doing. I want to wake up and be excited about the work that I have to do.

Right before I took my test, I visited my old music school: Atlanta Institute of Music and Media. Walking inside that building felt like walking inside a time warp. I was taken back to a place I forgot. Suddenly I remembered who I was before I moved to LA. I remember why I started music school in the first place. I was tired of the beauty industry. I missed performing. I missed singing. I planned to move to LA in 2020 but covid wouldn't allow that. I enrolled in music school because I needed some type of outlet. As much as I loved being there, I did not take that education and training as seriously as I should have. Moving to LA was a very impulsive decision. I am understanding now what it means to be dedicated to something. I was all all over the place. You know the old saying “Nothing grows from comfort zone.” I believe the beauty and barber industry been my comfort zone place for too long.

As I prepare this weekend, I need to do some self evaluation. I need to figure out my next course of action. Like the song “Pink Friday Girls” says: “What you gonna do with your life?” I’ve reached a milestone in my career but I still feel stuck. I decided I don’t want to work this summer. This girl just wants to have fun. I cant afford to neglect yet another waist bead season. I’m planning this summer to make a come back. I miss when waist beads was my main focus. I don’t need to be in survival mode. I need to be in my feminine era.

This summer I only want to get involved with work that feels good in my spirit. I don’t want to operate from survival mode anymore to earn an income. I want to be in my divine feminine and I want to focus on living my best blessed life. These jobs don’t value my life enough for me. I need to LIVE!

Happy Birthday to my father Dr. Sauveur Mahotiere! My inspiration:

Oh, daddy dear you know you will always be #1

Thanks for letting me share!

-Malon Mahotiere