Divine 29
THIS OPEN LETTER IS DEDICATED TO MY GODSIS (GODDESS) Isis Faust! Happy 29th Birthday Queen :)
You don’t know how much time.
You don’t know how many signs.
You don’t know how many roads.
You don’t know how many fines.
At 29, I didn’t feel the best at times.
At 29, I started to reflect this time.
At 29, I started to protect what aligns..
At 29, I started to accept my divine.
At 29, I tried to stop eating swine.
Temptation wins almost every time.
See, I knew that this was my time.
I always knew this little light of mine.
They did not want me to let it shine.
Once I do, I know they will be blind.
It was only a matter of divine time.
I had to know what is rightfully mine.
Yes. It took me a lot of time to find.
Once I did, I finally eased my mind.
29 hit different. I am not the same.
After so many years of ignorance,
they want to learn my real name.
My name is Malon Mahotiere but
My new middle name is Mallie.
This name represents a change.
As a child, I always felt ashamed.
Everyone having more than I did.
Yet, I kept smiling to hide all the pain.
Until 1 day, I just could not hide it at all.
My entire life was starting to down fall.
How can we stop this from growing?
First it starts with you knowing.
What do you know?
What do you don’t?
What did you do?
What will you won’t?
Know yourself in every way you can.
Slowly, I started to find myself again.
One day, I woke up crying with tears.
My mind overwhelmed with my fears.
Fear of me being without.
Fear of me being alone.
Fear of me continuing life without a home.
Fear for my kids, who aren’t even here yet.
My mind won’t erase what happened.
My heart won’t let me forget.
There are so many unspoken regrets.
I decided to put myself to a test.
Writing always helps me reset.
I wrote “Birds in the Sky” at age 29.
By the time it was finally released,
My inner child was learning peace.
Today at 30, I am bettering myself.
Today at 30, I am focused on health.
Today at 30, I’m proud of who I am.
Today at 30, I’m proud of who I love.
Today at 30, I thank those watching above.
Today at 30, I am ready for a change.
Today at 30, I am ready to play this game.
When I decide to play, I always play to win.
When I try to play, I always play for keeps.
When I start to play, I like to have some fun.
It was dark for many years of my life,
So I genuinely appreciate the sun.
The Sun is my energy source center.
OSHUN is a spiritual goddess you can enter.
Tap into your divine light and your power.
Do not let demons consume you.
Avoid low vibrational devourers
Analyze every sexual encounter.
NEVER LET THEM STEAL YOUR POWER.
At 29, I was living on the street.
At 29, I didn’t have much to eat.
At 29, I lost people I loved so deep.
At 29, I struggled with my self love.
At 29, I struggled with a lot of shame.
At 29, I could no longer maintain a thang.
At 29, I even considered chasing fame.
At 29, I knew I wanted my life to CHANGE.
This Sunday September 29th 2024 reminds me of this.
Today I make the choice to embrace my natural gifts.
I know God will help guide me through all of this.
Today I am honored to still be here
Today we celebrate overcoming our fears
At 29, I transitioned into my divine.
May this happen for you.
IN DUE TIME.
Thanks for letting me share
-Malon Mahotiere