Mama 64th Birthday

Today is your big day!

Nothing else matters.

At least not to me.

Once you left us,

Their true colors I see.

Too much jealousy for me.

Envy and greed passed on.

From you to me.

You are age 64.

I wish you were here.

All I do now is

Pretend that you’re near.

Suddenly I lose fear.

The lies I don’t hear.

Alone I was,

For many years.

I still cry a lot.

So many tears.

I miss you dearly

I lost you at 1

People don’t understand

It’s like losing the sun

The pictures I have left

Never feel like enough

I just wish you were here.

When times would get rough.

I pray for your heart

I pray through the pain.

What happened to us

Could turn anyone insane.

Yet you keep me sane.

I honor your name.

Today you turn 64.

They still think its a game

I let go of my pain

I know what you endured

You deserve to be happy.

Great things are in store.

Your spirit felt sad.

So I’m choosing to soar.

Today I celebrate you!

I’m so much like you

No matter what I do

I always think of you

You taught me about love

You taught me about life

You weren’t even here

Yet showed me the light.

As a child I didn’t know

Why they hated me

Now that I’m grown

I can clearly see

It was all jealousy.

It was rooted envy.

That spread from you to me.

Dear Mama Rama,

You are appreciated.

Even if I can’t see you.

I know they see me.

How bad can that be?

They see you too.

So what I know to do

Is better myself for you.

Today I say Thank you!

The day you were born.

A life was transformed.

The day you gave me life

was love at first sight.

You loved being our mother.

Yet I still wonder

Why were you under attack?

You didn’t deserve that.

They remember you still.

I don’t know how to feel

It doesn’t matter anymore.

I feel excited even more

I never felt this way before.

I know what is in store.

You taught me about love

All the way from above.

So today I say:

Happy Birthday

To my African Queen

Rahmatoullahy Barry Mahotiere

There’s no more hurt

There’s no more pain.

I choose to honor your name.

Even if I still cry,

I know its only right

To keep your name alive.

I refuse to let it die

Love never dies

It only transforms

Watch your love grow

Into a new life form.

I will quietly pray.

Today I proudly say

Happy Birthday Mama Rama!

One day

I will have babies too.

I’ll have some for me

and some just for you.

That is my way

of saying thank you!

Without you being here today

You are still always in my heart.

30 years gone without you.

It was really breaking my heart.

Until I decided one day to have

A brand new start.

I have a new mind.

I am one of a kind.

I have way better thoughts

Even though I endured alot.

I always fought

but today I stop.

I let God fight for us instead.

This will help clear my head.

I trust in what you and him got.

I trust in whatever is the plot.

Dear Mama Rama, I beg

Give me all that you got.

Send me all of the power.

You have that birthright!

Your daughter can fight.

I will defend you every day.

No matter what they say.

They can’t take it away.

Thank you always Mama.

For keeping me safe.

For keeping me sane.

Dear Mama Rama,

they will know your name.

They won’t think its a game.

They can give me all the blame.

Nothing will ever be the same.

Dear Mama Rama,

I release all of the shame.

I learned from all of the pain.

Dad loved you and me dearly.

They saw that very clearly.

Although I had to miss out,

I don’t have any doubt.

The children you had,

will not be going out sad.

Dear Mama Rama,

There’s no one above you for me.

You are my protector.

You are my African Queen

Your presence is felt

It doesn’t have to be seen.

I will always welcome you

And all of your energy.

That’s all I need for me.

For your birthday,

I choose not to be angry.

Instead I choose light.

I am still willing to fight.

For you out of love,

I will never give up.

They put me through hell.

But it only made me tough.

Growing up without you,

was a lot more than rough.

A heart break I feel.

On random days,

The pain you had to feel

Takes my breath away

Not in a good way.

Today I still say,

Happy Birthday Mama Rama

The woman who gave me life.

My pure African genes

Your beautiful face and soul

That is what keeps me seen.

When I start to miss you,

Sometimes I like to sing.

What else can I do?

You make my heart ring.

I hear your call

For me to heal

A choice I made

The hurt I don’t feel

Now I understand

This is all in God’s plan

One day I woke up.

I accepted this loss

As hard as it was,

It came with a cost.

To live a better life,

I have to be at peace.

So today I say thank you,

For bringing that for me.

All the way through,

In spirit and truth.

Love always your daughter,

-Malon Mahotiere