Spooky Season

Hey y’all! I’m back again! We have 2 more days until Malon’s mama’s birthday. I like to refer to her as MAMA RAMA. In honor of her birthday, I’m having a special! Get $16 off when you order on my website using code: MAMARAMA Special ends 10/17 SQUAD. Anyways, life is great. Pussy still good. Million dollar pussy might pounce on that airplane. I’m ready to get TF ASAP. The best part about being in LA is going to school. Once school is over, I’m ready to GO. On a count of 3 GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! GO! Right now I am plotting, I could go to New York but I need to make sure that makes sense for me to do. Today I received an email from my employers location in New York. They gave me the list of requirements if I decided to teach there. Right now, I don’t want to work. I’m waiting until after I turn 30 to decide.

My mothers birthday is in 2 days and my cousin Victoria share the same birthday as her. I text her “Birthday plans yet?” but I have yet to get a response. She has a bad habit of not celebrating her life. Its upsetting me and my homegirls. I also have a Queen from Queens that I need to meet in person. Her name is Briana. She’s been supporting me for years! We love the loyal Queens who stick with me. If I do go to New York, I don’t know how long I’ll be there. Of course I could attempt to go to another WNBA game.

New York is a different type of energy. It’s been awhile since I’ve been so I really don’t know what to expect. I’ve been finessing my way into things. I’m not sure if its going to work that easily in New York.

To be honest, my feminine energy BARELY works in the West Coast. That’s why I am switching from LIGHT to DARK. I know I am light. I’ve been operating in it. However, it isn’t always received well. The men don’t mind when I use my light feminine energy to get ahead but its always a woman trying to block my shot.

Ladies, WHY????? Why are you the ones blocking my opportunities? Its fine, I’m going to learn from y’all negativity and become dark myself! I will operate in DARK feminine energy

I told my other brother about trying to do media for the WNBA. He was very excited for me. I decided to unblock Algabra after talking to my brother Suave. “Bro is just spirtiually weak. We gotta pray for him. He just needs to work on his spirit and then he’ll be a better person.” I agree with that.

When I told my brother I snuck into the media room at the WNBA game in Las Vegas he said to me “That was very dishonest of you.” I bust out laughing! He says “Well how was it? What happened?” Although sneaking in wasn’t part of my plan, people kept trying to stop my plan. I just wanted to get close enough to take photos. Obviously I know you need “credentials” to be on the floor but it seemed like people were enjoying telling me I cant go. They were getting a kick out of telling me NO. So I took that personally. I’ve been taking everything personally this Jordan year. I hate when people tell me NO. So I said WATCH ME DO ME!

I went down there anyway. No one stopped me. In fact, security searched my bag and let me right in. When I walked into the room with all the media people I was so scared but I acted as if I was supposed to be there. One black guy said “HEY! We were waiting on you! Have a seat! Come eat!” When I looked at him, he looked familiar. Maybe he works for ESPN I thought. He had that type of commentator host energy. They kept asking me questions on the spot so I lied and said I’m an intern. Technically that isn’t a lie. I don’t know enough about media to say I’m this and I’m that. I’m just learning the business and to be honest I think I chose the right field seeing how corrupt the media is.

I hope me pursuing media can create a shift in what it means to broadcast information. They always LYING in the media. When my parents died, they wrote about it in the newspaper. Now if that’s not LOW, then I don’t know. Things like that don’t offend me. I figure out how I can use it to my advantage. I remember reading the article about my parents passing away and I thought “Which SICK person thought this would be a great headline news and how did they even know to report this story?” SO MANY QUESTIONS! Now when I look at the media today I get triggered when media is so thirsty to post about death like when DMX died. That was just SICK. The blatant lies and deception.

The media is the enemy for a lot of celebrities. I realized this as a kid. I think that’s why I was always into it. I wanted to know the TRUTH. I just couldn’t believe the lies they would put out. Everything proper NO PROPAGANDA. I thought to myself “I will do media the way it should be done!” However this is the most challenging thing I’ve ever attempted to do in my life. Other than writing my memoir of course. I wanted to beat the curve before I drop this book. I’ll be damned if someone publishes an article about me or my life story without my approval. Let me call my LAWYER!

For this very reason, I’m waiting to release my memoir to the public. I refuse for the media to monetize off of my trauma AGAIN. I don’t know who got paid to report my father’s death, but I know they didn’t give a DAMN about what happened afterwards as a result. If you don’t give a DAMN, we don’t give a F. I guess that’s why I just don’t care when people tell me NO. I think “I do what I want!” It seems media people have the same mentality. Yes it seems very dark and corrupt but C’EST LA VIE

Things are about to get reallll spooky out here! I said I would go to New York if a miracle happened. Then BOOM. A miracle happened. Now I’m plotting and planning and this is just the beginning. I start my actual online school for Media communication in another week if my counselor and Military rep can get on the same page. I’ve been trying to enroll in this training since JULY. Baby, its OCTOBER. When I realized this man was delaying my education training I thought WOW. Its getting spooky weird. I understand the POWER of media now. That’s why people are trying to stop me from doing it! They already know what’s up! It reminds me of my manager that harassed me about my hips. I told him straight to his face “I can get a feel for this position first because right now I’m transitioning careers to do media.” When I said that I could see the look on his face. He tried to distract me by giving me a client BET weekend. He knew I was there to do media yet wanted to make me THE HELP. NO SIR. I am not the help. Media doesn’t get treated all that great. You gotta climb up the ranks. I would much rather do that than be a hair stylist. Unless I’m getting paid AT LEAST $10,000, I’m not touching no ones head. PERIOD. BET weekend in LA was my first media gig. I didn’t like how I was treated at all. I know I’m a rookie but technically I’ve been about this media life since living in ATL. The only thing was I never took it seriously. I was afraid of success. The only celebrity I enjoyed seeing in LA was K-Camp but I already met K-Camp in the club in ATL. I was a young hottie thottie

Seeing him in LA was cool. Then I saw BIG TIG, but I’ve met him so many times that it wasn’t special. When I think about media, I had so many opportunities to do it in ATL. They were willingly going to work with me, BIG TIG, Fly Guy DC, Yung Joc but I just kept self sabotaging opportunities.

Thank God I finally got over my mental block. I don’t self sabotage anymore. I take what’s MINE then TAKE SOME MORE. I thought about going back to Atlanta but I’m so skeptical. The way people are so jealous and hateful towards me trying to elevate got me rethinking but at the same time, there’s a lot of love for me there too. So I’m conflicted. “I don’t want you to feel like you’re homeless, you have a home in Atlanta even if you don’t realize it yet. This is your home.” Those are Michelle’s words. She’s right but also I don’t know how I will be received if I do decide to go back. After dealing with Rose, I believe a lot of people feel the way she does about me deep down. I never claimed to be a perfect girl.

However, I make homelessness look GOOD. I’m not proud to be homeless but I’m happy to know that someone else in the same situation is jealous simply because they cant look as good as I do in this situation. Yes I may be out in these streets but you wouldn’t be able to tell because I clean up NICE. Which speaking of being in the streets, I’m the only one left without a bed of my own. My brother Suave sent me a video of his own room. I am very happy for him. He’s been through a lot worse than I have but now he finally found his place. “Guess how many days I’ve been sober? Its how much Kobe scored in his last game.” I guessed 80. He said “81”. I’m PROUD of my brother! We still don’t know if he’s having a boy or girl but I know his child will be getting a SOBER father and that’s good to me.

Its about to get really SPOOKY in a minute. I’m using my feminine dark energy to manifest the life I want. I realize Rose being jealous showed me parts of myself I should embrace. I posted her words on purpose so people could see how people really feel about me once I’m no longer in their presence. I post a lot of positive things that no one seems to care about. Well that’s over. Time to show my DARK side. People cant handle that because they KNOW how powerful darkness is. I’m tired of operating in LIGHT only for people to discourage me or try to dim it. We not doing that no more. Malon is stepping into her dark feminine energy era. People may not receive it well because it will be a shift but its necessary. No one likes the orphan girl thats happy and smiling so let me switch it up. Spook yall out with the DARKNESS of truth! Can you handle it? SPOOKY SEASON IS HERE. Don’t get scared now. Deep down this is what y’all been waiting for! Now it’s time to deliver !

ALSO I am a positive LIGHT yes but the world is consumed with darkness. MY LIGHT doesnt penetrate as much as DARKNESS does. So we are turning the lights off and getting more DARK. It’s the perfect time to do so because its Spooky Season and the Holidays are coming. I am NOT trying to be out in these streets during Holiday Season. Its going to be cold and don’t nobody got time for that!

Let the games begin!

Dark feminine energy activated!

I’m coming for you!

BOO!

-Slim Shady